i'm drunk nao

i'm drunk and nobody cares.

i speak russian to myself.

i am ashamed to know it. it is an axis language.

english gets harder when i'm drunk. when i am russian-drunk, i am russian. english is negligable at that stage an i'm gettin there.

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO SPEAK ENGLISH

people think im an asshole when i correct them, but i mean i am, but also i dont wanna get english-stupid. it is very hard for me n thats why im respecting it so much.

FUCK you

where are you when i need you.

how can you post stories on blogs anyway.

i havent any socks, good sir.

i will write a book: a collection of drunk essays by yours truly.

you owe me. i will never speak russian to you. you cant take it and i dont want you and that connected. i do not like to speak it when im around you. it feels tried. it feels tired. it feels forced and clichéd.

i cannot tell you i love you because you wont hear me saying it.

i can say 'elves' to you,

but i'd much rather you said it for yourself.

thtas from the wall, a poem by so and so.

LOOK IT UP

but seriously: stories? i used to read harry potter fanfics and sometimes i still do. they can get quite smutty but for some reason i no longer appreciate the smuttiness. i like the honest frienfship better n maybe its cuz ive had the sex now i wantr the friends.

you were never good enough.

i have a friend whose dad, in the figurative sense, makes me cackle gleefully. this guy is hellbent on ruining his kids' lives, but to what end? amusement? i mean, i can see that, but its just not that amusing cuz it reflects on him. it intensifies his incompetency. 

but really it seems that he always has some crushing comeback when the kids talk about him; look dad, i made you some pancakes. 

these pancakes are thin.

.........

(silent tears)

you were never good enough.

OMG i would laugh my ass off if MY dad said that cuz if IM not good enough, who tha hell IS, right?!

i'm so money.

HvsZ in progress!